My Heart & Soul Forever
August 21, 2009
My Peanut, it is so hard to understand how I have been able to go two years without you by my side - my heart, my soul, my best friend ever. We were inseparable, through rough times, sad times, silly times and extremely happy times! You were always that constant unconditional love that kept me going. You loved me like no other...
I went to the beach yesterday and today to try to remember you in your younger days - running on the beach, digging holes to China and barking louder with every dig of your paw. You loved to run like the wind on the beach! When we would throw your favorite red Jolly Ball, you would prance after it and bring it back so proudly. You loved the beach- in the summer, spring, fall and winter. It was your favorite place to be. I went there to "be with" you. I smiled of memories of you, but I felt even more lost when I got up to leave. Even two years later, it's so unfathomable to not have you in my life...
The past few days, I have re-lived our last days together, and it left me almost immobile. This year, though, I was able to remember happier memories as well. I suppose that is progress from last year at this time. No matter what happens and how much time passes, I will still beg you to come back to me every night when I go to sleep. And, I will continue to love you and miss you forever and a day - yesterday, today, tomorrow and forever. I love you with all my heart and beyond!!! You are my Babygirl - forever and a day - no matter what...
Mama loves you, Mama loves you, Mama loves you!!!!!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
From Brandi to Mama
You're giving me a special gift, So sorrowfully endowed, And through these last few cherished days, Your courage makes me proud.
But really, love is knowing When your best friend is in pain, And understanding earthly acts Will only be in vain.
So looking deep into your eyes, Beyond, into your soul, I see in you the magic, that will Once more make me whole.
The strength that you possess, Is why I look to you today, To do this thing that must be done, For it's the only way.
That strength is why I've followed you, And chose you as my friend, And why I've loved you all these years... My Mama 'til the end.
Please, understand just what this gift, You're giving, means to me, It gives me back the strength I've lost, And all my dignity.
You take a stand on my behalf, For that is what Mamas do. And know that what you do is right, For I believe it too.
So one last time, I breathe your scent, And through your hand I feel, The courage that's within you, To now grant me this appeal.
Cut the leash that holds me here, and let me run, Once more a strong and steady pup, My pain and struggle done.
And don't despair my passing, For I won't be far away, Forever here, within your heart, And memory I'll stay.
I'll be there watching over you, Your ever faithful friend, And in your memories I'll run, ...a young pup once again...