Bella and big brother Valentino
My beautiful angel was euthanized yesterday. It was one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make. She was only 5 months old. She was outside and had gotten into the engine of my car. I didn't know she was there as I drove around town running errands, she never made a sound. My car broke down, when we opened the hood she ran out. Her leg was very badly mangled from getting caught in a belt and pulled through a pulley. I thought that when I took her to the vet, everything would be okay. The vet told me that there was a very slim chance they could do anything for her, that it would take multiple surgeries and maybe an amputation, and that it was probably best I end her suffering. It was extremely hard to sign those papers and I regret not going back there with her, but I couldn't watch her leave me. She was so perfect, the sweetest most beautiful cat i have ever had. She loved me so much, and followed me everywhere. Jumping in my lap to snuggle everytime I sat down. Her hair is still on the couch, I can't bear to vacuum it up. It is all I have left besides her pink collar. Her time on this earth was much too short. I miss her so incredibly much, my heart aches, my stomach turns, I don't know when I will feel better. I feel like it is all my fault, if only I hadn't been in a rush, and thought to let her in before I left.