They say memories are golden, well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories, I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you, a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place, no one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway, and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven, and bring you back again.
Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.
Until we are together again, my little baby boy,
I love you.
Pushing down the pillow
Ramses February, 1992-June 4, 2005 I will love you for all of eternity No matter how many days, weeks, months, or years, my broken heart will never mend since I lost you. As time goes by, it just does not get any easier, and in a way, I am glad, its my only way to keep you close to my heart.
When you remember me, it means that you have carried something of who I am with you, that I have left some mark of who I am on who you are. It means that you can summon me back to your mind even through countless years and miles stand between us. It means that if we meet again, you will know me. It means that after I die, you can still see my face and hear my voice and speak to me in your heart.
The moment that you left me my heart split in two. One side filled with memories, the other died with you. I often lay awake at night while the world is fast asleep and take a walk down memory lane with tears upon my cheek. Remembering you is easy, I do it everyday. But missing you is a heartache that never goes away. I hold you tightly in my heart and there you will remain, you see life goes on without you but will never be the same.
You will always be in my heart,
my little baby boy RAMSES
Last months before we lost you.
Remember The way you were so cute the first moment I saw you as a kitten, when I put you into the hand shopping cart at the pet store, and you purred for me for the first time. I fell in love with you instantly. The way you terrorized Jacque when you were a kitten. The way we used to play/fight on the floor when you were a baby. The way you would play fetch with your brown furry toy when you were a kitten The way you jumped on the railing on the balcony in Indianapolis, and scared the shit out of me. The way you would always purr the moment I would touch you. Your cute little baby cry. The way you would stand on your hind legs, put your front paws on my arm to rub your face in mine and kiss me. The way you would arch your back when I was about to pick you up. The way you would love to be held upside-down with all your paws totally stretched out. The way you would mix on me before going to the foot of the bed, and then lay on my foot, to go to sleep. The way you loved to be challenged with your toys, we would put them on the counter while you were on the floor, and then you would stalk them and attack. The way you loved to smash down the back pillows on the sofa in the den, to sleep on them. The way you loved to be in the sun on the settee outside. The way you would find a cool spot outside, after getting too hot sunbathing. The way you would run outside to get a drink of water first before sunbathing. The way you loved to fall asleep on the chair outside listening to music.
Is it time to get up for dinner yet?
Remember The way you always had a noisy nasal issue, which I am constantly reminded now with Aten, since he has it as well. The way you would run down the steps to go down stairs ''Look out, here I come'' The way you would jump up on my desk at night when I could not sleep, and was on the computer, and always try to lay on my keyboard, and finally settle on my hand instead. The way you would always lay on the floor in my office, right under the side of my desk, so I could not see you, and I would always step on you, till' you finally got smart and would run from me when I got up. The way you would finally get comfortable on my office chair, so I could watch you, as you kept me company late at night. The way you would nap all day until it was time for dinner. The way you would be mad at me for being away from home, and then finally forgive me, and give me your love. The way you would never come to us when we were looking for you, even if we were calling your name and you were on the living room chair and we did not see you because you blended into it, with this look like ''Yes?'' The way you would sleep in the corner of the dining room under the chair, or in the corner of the den, because you wanted to be near the heat vent, or on the glass shelf in the breakfast nook, in the winter time to keep warm. The way you would drop your head down so Daddy Greg could massage your shoulders as you appeared to go into a trance, and then lay down in his lap purring. The way you would balance on all 4 paws at the edge of the litter box when you went #2, so your paws would not get dirty. The cute ways you would sleep in the bed on top of the dresser. The way you would catch your ring toys in your paws when we would toss them to you, or you would hit them and send them flying away from you.
I am just another nic-nac
Remember The way you would play with the end of a thin stick from one of the feather toys, you would tip your head down, ears pointing straight up, and then grab the stick with your front paws. The way you would just lay in the middle of the pile of catnip, and just lick it up. The way you would get totally nuts when you were near baby's breath. The way you were such a klutz sometimes when you tried to jump up on somethings, and other times were as graceful as a wild cat. The way you would lay on your back, paws stretched out all the way, with not a care in the world. The way you were always so stubborn all the time, it always had to be your way. The way you would carry your little pink feather toy and cry when you wanted some attention,again I am reminded of this since Aten also now does it. The way your front teeth always showed like a saber tooth tiger. The way you would sharpen those saber teeth on the tree in the bedroom and den, you managed to rub areas bare on the tree in the bedroom, I love to look at them, it reminds me when you were here with me. The way you would run through the house with your back all hunched up when you were excited, the weather was changing, or if you had a good time in the litter box. The way you would push my office door wide open late at night, come in, and I would have to close it so the light did not wake up Daddy Greg. The way you would run into the kitchen if you heard the deli drawer open, or heard plastic bags. The way you would give your cute little baby cries for deli meat, you were AKA ''Deli Cat''. The way you would always have first choice for what to eat for dinner, most of the time on the counter. The way you would go nuts for rubber bands, you would find them even under things. The way you looked at me when I pulled out the milk from the fridge, and I would put some in one of your bowls to drink.
No photos, please!
Remember The way you would sometimes jump on the table and just shove your face into our plates. The way you would perch yourself up against things when you were sleeping. The way you would pretend to sharpen your claws on the table base in the breakfast nook, on the brick downstairs, and also stretch and sharpen on the ottoman and sofa in the den. The way you forced your face and body through the plastic when we were putting the new kitchen floor down to see what was going on. The way you always had to see who was in the house. The way nothing ever really scared you, you were fearless. The way you loved to eat fur wherever you could find it. The way you laid in bed with your paw stretched out like you were royalty. The way sometimes when we would just look at you while you were standing and you just looked so regal. The way you looked at us, like you totally understood us, and they way you knew we understood you as well. The way your fur always smelled so sweet, even after you left us. The way you would come into the workout room, look at me while I was on the treadmill, I would keep telling you ''I'll be done in a little''. You would then give yourself a major bath perched up against the mirrors, patiently waiting till I was done, and then when I was, you would want to be in my lap front paws stretched out, you purring. I could not start to workout until you were done needing loving. The way you would stretch your head out as far as you could so we could scratch your neck. The way you forgave me for not being with you when I could not give you a safe home.
Let me know when your off the treadmill.
Remember The way you would tip your head down so I could give you multiple kisses. The way you would put your back paw on my arm as I rubbed your belly. The way you would rest your front paws and chest on my foot when we were in the bathroom. The way you would somehow look out and lay in the front window in the master bedroom, you would push your face between the wall and the blind and use your body weight to keep the blind from moving under you. The way I would grab your saber teeth with my thumb and index finger. The way you like the inside of your ear rubbed with my knuckle. The way I would pull your ear with my mouth. The way I would turn to face you when you were at the foot of the bed and wake you to give you loving, and tell you that your my little baby boy, and that I loved you, and you would purr for me. The way you would raise your tail when you got close to me when you would greet me, and rub your face and head up against my fingers. The way I would rub your side and rub your neck and watch you smile at me. The way you loved your back scratched, rubbed and massaged. The way you would let me put my finger under your toes and pads, so it was like I was holding your paw. The way you loved to sink your teeth into Styrofoam. The way you would sometimes lay next to me by my face at night and purr. The way you would dig with your paw, face and wet nose to wake me when you wanted to be loved. The way you loved parmesan cheese. The way you would want to go outside in the snow, puff your body up, and sit under the patio table.
I am ready for my close up!
Remember The way you would sit at the landing because you did not want to go down to the basement. The way you used your saber teeth to try to get through the screen door. The way you once did, with Amen right behind you. The way you would go from your double purr to a single purr before you would stop purring. The way you would be annoyed when Seti would greet you, head butting you and kris crossing in front of you, after he would run to greet you first as you tried to walk by. The way you would whip your tail when you were really happy. The way we could get you all excited by saying ''get it, get it'' you would stare at whatever it was first and then attack. The way you would come back to bed after daddy Greg would leave for work. The way you would stay in bed for the rest of the day, till it was time for dinner. The way you kept calling for me ''Daddy, I need you, Daddy, I need you'' when you were not feeling well the night before we lost you. The way that no matter what time, what day, what year, I always knew you wanted me to touch you, kiss you, and love you. The way you made it so easy to love you. The way you loved us back. The way that you were always such a sweet, smart, loving, even tempered little baby boy.
Yes, I am still handsome!
Remember The way I will always think about you and miss you. The way I will love you for all of eternity. The way you will be in my heart forever. The way my life will never be as sweet as it was when you were here with me. The way I will never feel complete until we are together again. The way you will always be the most incredibly perfect little being I will ever know in my life.
Memorial shrine for my baby boy Ramses
Ramses was my baby, my child, the love of my life. Losing him all but killed me. I lost him to lymphomic cancer. From the time he was diagonosed to the time we had to let him go was less then a week. Thanks to Michigan State University vet hospital for trying everything they could to save him. We had to deal with Animal Emergency services hospital, in Grand Rapids, MI, who through total negligence and malpractice we lost precious days of Ramses life, and maybe we could have had him a bit longer. I created a monument pictured on the right, it is a scaled down version of the Temple at Luxor, in Egypt. Ramses was named after Ramses the Great, and this was his temple that was built, so I felt the need to do a scaled down version, fitting for my Ramses, his ashes are in the golden urn at the top. I will miss my Ramses, and until we are together again, I love you, my little baby boy.
How could you not love me???
I just wanted to thank everyone that visits Ramses page, and send back love and happy thoughts. I am always surprised and honored when total strangers leave such wonderful thoughts for me and for my Ramses. I send those thoughts of love back to all who have sent them to me. There is a special place for those who understand that our pets or more then just pets, they are our kids, our family, and without them, our lives are empty. We are better people because of our pet family. When you bring a pet into your home, you always know you have a limited time with them, so make sure you give them all the love you can, and enjoy all that they can be. I love being a guardian to them, and always thank God for letting me be the lucky one that can love them and take care of them while they are on this earth with us.
I had a dream, in this dream there was a light colored cat, he was almost an exact opposite in color as you, your dark's were his lights. It was almost as if you were telling me that you were sending him to me and this was the cat I was to look for. I did find this cat, we named him Aten. Everyday he does things that you did, he is so much like you it is amazing. I know you sent him to me, and I love him so so much, he will never replace you, but I thank GOD you sent him to me, he makes missing you a bit easier. I will love you forever my little baby boy, Ramses, I pray to GOD everyday that someday I will be able to be with you again.
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