***My Beloved Son***

Monday, February 9:  Dear Son ... How I Miss You Today and today will be forty-four (44) weeks that you left me.  Though I know you are with me and your baby sister Cupcand and baby brother Bob M. in spirit .. I feel your spirit and it comforts me so much because you know how much I Love You.

Son as we approach your birthday (the day we found each other [February 14th] .. I want you to know that I will always Love and Miss Your beautiful face.  Your baby sister Cupcake is just a beautiful girl ... just like you were a beautiful boy. 

I hope you are taking good care of Gabby .. you remember .. she is very shy .. and doesn't like to be around others ... so give her some extra care.

Until the day we are reunited .. my son ... WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU ... Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, February 16:  Hello my dear son.  Wow .. I cannot believe that it will be forty-five (45) weeks that you left me ... pretty soon I will have to count by years and months ... you know ... my memory might fail me ....

Son, I hope your Birthday and Valentine's Day get-together with all your friends was fun.  I know it was because Luna put it together ... ain't she a gorgeous girl ... I just know you are all "goo goo ga ga" over Luna and all the other ladies.  My son ... I LOVE and MISS YOU SO MUCH ....  I know you are at peace and are all healthy and restored to health .. and are running and playing with all those beautiful friends of yours.  BUT .. always be with me, Cupcake and Bob M......and keep teaching your baby sister Cupcake ... because you'd be so-ever proud of her as I am.  Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, February 23:  Hello my son ... today will be forty-six (46) weeks.  How I think of you often and truly Love and Miss You so very much ..!!!..  Today is a beautiful day .. the sun is shinning bright with a little wind and I was outside playing with your baby sister Cupcake in the area around the flower beds ... where you used to love to be and how I felt your presence so much .. Thank You Sammy for being with me and your baby sister Cupcake and baby brother Bob M. 

YOU are my Hero and truly the Keeper of My Heart.

Son, please give your sister Gabby BIG HUGS from me too.  Tell her I miss her though she was a "girl who loved to be all by herself" ... she was truly unique.

Son, always be with Me, Cupcake and Bob as we need your spirit with us always.  Be a good boy up at Rainbow Bridge and tell all your beautiful friends that I LOVE THEM too.

Dad, Cupcake and Bob M. 

Monday, March 2:  Dear Sammy ... today will be forty-seven (47) weeks that you left me to go to Rainbow Bridge to be restored to perfect health.  How I Miss and Love you so.  Though you are with me and your baby sister Cupcake and baby brother Bob M ... it still does hard for me to not see you ... but I feel your presence ... Thank You son for always being with me.

Son, we are having a tough time getting some bills that deal with "Pit Bulls" off the Legislative Agenda ... but with persistence and with your help ... we will prevail ... I just have this "gut" feeling all of the Pit Bulls and Rottweilers out there are banning together to get this bill off the agenda and not put into law.  Keep helping us son.

Your baby sister Cupcake is beautiful ... just like you.  Cupcake and Bob M. are growing beautifully and having lots of fun down here.  Always watch over them son .. as they need your's and Gabby's guidance.

Son .. always remember to take care of Gabby .. as she was a "loner" but I Love and Miss her too .... Just remember that Everyone who knew you ... Loves and Misses You Very Much ... especially your loving Daddy.

Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, March 9:  My dearest son Sammy ... today is forty-eight (48) weeks ...  How I Love and Miss You So Very Much.  I know it seems like I "repeat" myself ... but I will always tell YOU how much you meant to me and that I will ALWAYS Love and Miss You .. until the day we are reunited ... then we will spend eternity together.

Yesterday, on your 11th month Angel Day .. your baby sister Cupcake wanted to be with me .. right along my side .. as if to let me know you "whispered" "be with daddy as he is missing me .. so I need you to be with him today."  Son, Thank You for sending me Cupcake because she has been a true blessing sent to me by You to take care of me .. just like you used too.

Sammy, always know "You Have My Heart and Soul" and though I Love Cupcake and Bob M ..... YOU were one special son..!!..  Stay with us until we are all reunited.  Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.  

Monday, March 16:  My beautiful and handsome Sammy ... today is forty-nine (49) weeks that you left me to head to Rainbow Bridge where now you are at peace and having lots of fun with your sister Gabby and all the other beautiful and wonderful friends you have made there. 

Always know that I LOVE and MISS you, son ... not a day goes by that I think of you and and Gabby.  The fifteen (15) years of pure love you gave me .. and me to you.  You will always have my heart.  Though I have to tell you, your baby sister Cupcake has my heart too ... but I have so much love to give ... do not worry.

Your baby sister Cupcake has learned how to fetch the tennis ball .. just like YOU.  She has also learned to "give me her paw" because she knows she will get a treat.  I will now start teaching her to play with a frisbee ... just like beautiful Samantha in Winnipeg, Canada, who, as you know, was named after you, my son.  Always watch over Cupcake, Bob M. and Samantha .. and all the other beautiful babies here on earth.  Always be friends with ALL those babies up there with you.  Be a good friend to all .....

Remember that I will always LOVE and MISS YOU until we are reunited ..... Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, March 23:  Hello Son ... today is fifty (50) weeks that you we restored to health up at Rainbow Bridge.  How I see you in my dreams .. running and playing with all your friends.  Not a day goes by, son, that I do not think of you.  Always know that I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH ....

By the way, Son, yesterday when I was watering the trees and plants .. right where I used to help you walk ... I looked up ... and saw a hawk .... was that you letting me know you were around .... I KNOW IT WAS YOUR SIGN ... Just like that Sunday after your passing ....  Thank You son, from the bottom of my heart ... for letting me know you are still with me .... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH .. Sammy .....

Son, this past week was very sad for me .. because there has been some "idiot" who posted erroneous memorials .. and I fell for a couple of "pit bulls" ... only to find out the person was just putting up fake memorials.  Son, give me the strength to not hold a "grudge" ... and to know that this "person" is evil .. and when it is "his/her" time to leave this world .... "he/she" BETTER BE READY TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS for what they did .... playing with people's minds .... I was so ready to sponsor a few of those memorials ... Thank You son for giving me those "signs" to really think ....

Your baby sister Cupcake is just beautiful ... and your baby brother Bob M. is loving the warm weather outside.  They both go to the back patio and play .. sometimes Cupcake is a bit too rought .. but Bob M. will always run and jump the high wall .. because he knows Cupcake cannot get him there ....

Sammy .. my Beautiful Son .. Please know that you are truly my "Hero" and "The Keeper of My Heart" for sure ... Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, March 30:  Hello my beautiful son ... today will be fifty-one (51) weeks and I miss you more than you will ever know.  I think of the wonderful fifteen (15) years you brought joy and love to my life and I will always Love and Miss you so.

As your First-Year Angel Day approaches ... I am getting so sad and the thoughts of that morning you left to go to Rainbow Bridge will be so vivid in my memory .. but I do know that you are at peace and happy with all your new friends that you have made.  I know I have made so many WONDERFUL friends .. and because of YOU, Son.  Always know that I LOVE and MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH .... "YOU are the Keeper of My Heart"... and you always have my heart.

Son, your baby sister Cupcake is sitting right next to me as I write to you .. and she looks at me .. and is wondering why I have tears ... and she jumps up on me and licks my face as if to tell me "I am here daddy and I know you love my brother Sammy."

She has put that sparkle back into my eyes ... but I still have much saddness because I miss you so much son .. so much .. that my heart aches ....

Always be with us ... as I look to each day until we are together again ....  I LOVE YOU Sammy .... Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, April 6:  My dear son Sammy ... I must have lost track of the weeks .. because somewhere along the way ... I lost some weeks ... but tomorrow (April 7) will be YOUR One-Year Angel Day .. and how sad I am ... but do know that you are healthy once again, running and playing with your sister Gabby brothers J.J. and J.R. and all your wonderful friends you've made at Rainbow Bridge.

Though I cannot see you ... I feel your presence always with me my son ... and I ask you to give me the strength to keep on going so I can love your baby sister as much as I loved YOU.  Cupcake is always near my side .. just like you are .. and how happy that makes me.

Sammy .. not a day goes by that I don't think of you ... miss you ... and love you with all my heart.  Son ... please wait for me until it is my time to cross the bridge and give you those big hugs and kisses that you so loved.

I LOVE YOU SON .... and HAPPY ONE-YEAR ANGEL DAY tomorrow (Tuesday, April 7th).  Dad, Cupcake and Bob M. 

Monday, April 13:  Dear son Sammy ... though this week was a tough one as your One-Year Angel Day came and went ... I want you to always know that YOU will ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART.  

Son, I will not count the weeks any longer .. because, if you remember, I lost track ... so I will just post to you weekly.

Son, so many wonderful friends visited your memorial and left some beautiful words for you and for me ... we have to be so-ever thankful to these friends whom I now call "My Critters Family."  Son, always be friends with everyone there at Rainbow Bridge and play with all of your friends.

Son, always know that you and Gabby will always be in my heart .. always.  I ask you and Gabby to watch over your baby sister Cupcake and brother Bob M. ... teach them all you can and remember that .... I LOVE AND MISS YOU AND GABBY VERY MUCH .....  Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, April 27:  My Dearest and Beloved Son Sammy ... HOW I HAVE MISSED VISITING YOUR MEMORIAL while I was away.  Just know that I thought of you always and knew you were with me on my journey as I had your sterling silver doggy bone containing some of your ashes with me around my neck at all times. 

I hope you have made many new friends and have continued to be a good friend to your old friends too.  Are you taking care of your sister Gabby? ... I know you are because you loved her very much.  I know you and Gabby are having such a great time at Rainbow Bridge ... BUT ... always know that I LOVE AND MISS YOU BOTH VERY MUCH.

Son, my travel took me to Belize City and Orchid Bay.  I looked at property in Orchid Bay but have decided to wait a few years until the homes are built.  It is beautiful and I know you would have loved it there. 

Son, how I Miss and Love You So .... Your baby sister Cupcake is simply beautiful and how I missed being away from her .. but she behaved with sitter and when I came home .. how she "yelled" at me .. just like you used too ... did you put her up to it?  I bet you did .....

Son, just remember that you are always on my mind and in my heart.  Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, May 4:  My Dear Son Sammy.  I want you to know that you are so missed and so loved.  I think of you every single day .. especially today as I work out in the yard planting flowers in your favorite area that you used to love to lay and snooze in the bright sun.  Your baby sister Cupcake is with me always .. watching me as I plant and looking at me talk to you .. wondering "who is my dad talking too."  

I think she knows because I always speak of you as her "big" brother.  Sammy, I hope you are watching over your sister Gabby.  I just know you and Gabby are happy being together with all your new friends.

Oh, Son, if I haven't told you, there is this beautiful little girl named Samantha who lives in Canada and she was named after you .. how awesome is that.  Samantha was found on the side of the road one blizzardy day almost frozen.  She was rescued by the most wonderful lady named Lauvern who has now given Samantha the title "Mascot" of her son Luke's Shelter.  That is so great, Son.  I know you and Luke had your "paws" in guiding Lauvern to Samantha.

Always watch over your baby sister Cupcake and brother Bob M. and myself.  Always know that you are in my heart and soul, Sammy because you were my best friend and confidant who always listened to me when I needed someone to talk to.

I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH Sammy .. but you already know that.  Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, May 11:  My beloved son Sammy ... just thinking of you most of my day today because I was watering and planting flowers around "your" special area of the yard.  As I thought of you .. how I wished that you would have sent me that "sign" like you did that Sunday after you left to head to Rainbow Bridge .. remember that sign, son.  It was a hawk circling right above me .. not too high up .. that I could see its beak and how it looked down towards me and then hovered .. then circled again and then flew towards the Santa Fe Ski Basin ... I just knew it was your sign to me.

Son, always know that you are in my heart and soul.  How I miss you Sammy .. if I could just have you to hold again ... I know you have made many wonderful friends and you are taking good care of your sister Gabby.  She's shy .. but I hope not too shy. 

I pray that you and Gabby are always with me .. watching over me and your baby sister Cupcake and brother Bob M.  I know Cupcake would have loved her big brother as she is just like you, Sammy, in every way.  Always know that you and your sister Gabby are so loved and so missed by me.  Love you always and forever and to the moon and back .... Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, May 18:  Son .. how I miss you so much.  I'm here typing with my eyes full of tears.  I worked out in the yard yesterday with your sister Cupcake right along my side .. and thoughts of you flooded me. 

Son, you my special boy and I will never, ever forget you.  I hope you and Gabby are having lots of fun with all your new friends.  Always treat each and everyone with respect and play with all of them, ok, son.

Son, I know you are always with me and Cupcake and Bob M. ... and I thank you for being with us.  Always know that I Love and Miss You So Very Much.

Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, May 25:  Good Monday my son .. I now can write to you as the internet is restored.  How I've missed coming by your beautiful memorial to visit with you and read all the beautiful postings from all your's and my friends.  Son, how you are so loved and so missed .. especially by me.  Your little sister Cupcake and brother Bob M. are doing well.  Cupcake is getting so big and, boy, does she have those muscles like you did.

I always "think" what you and Cupcake would be like together .. running and jumping after one another.  I know you and your sister Gabby have made many beautiful friends up at Rainbow Bridge. 

Sammy and Gabby ... how I love and miss you both so very much .. but I know you already know that.  Always be with me and your baby sister Cupcake and brother Bob M. 

Sending lots of Love to you Sammy and Gabby ... always know you both are on my mind constantly ... Your Ever-Loving Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, June 1:  Dear Sammy and Gabby .... thinking of you both today and missing you very much.  This past Saturday I was mowing the weeds around the yard and thought of you both ... remembering when you used to try to bite the lawn mower .. and you know what ... Your baby sister Cupcake was doing the same thing .. it was am amazing thing to watch because it was like I was watching you go after the lawn mower.

Cupcake would run to the mower .. try to take a bite .. then take off running around the yard so fast .. her tongue was hanging out so much .. it made me laugh.

Sammy and Gabby .. always know that your Dad loves and misses you both very much.  Not a day goes by that I do not think of you both because you both were my kids who gave me much love and affection.  I will love and miss you both .. and always be waiting for me to cross that beautiful Rainbow Bridge.

Your baby sister misses you Gabby because she brings over some of your fur to me .. and if to tell me .. "where is my big sister".  You are so loved and so missed.  Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, June 8:  Dear Sammy and Gabby .. how I miss you both very much.  This weekend, for whatever reason, you both were on my mind very much and how the memories came flooding back to me.  I shed many tears this weekend for you both .. but know that you are together having lots of fun with your friends up at Rainbow Bridge.

Always remember that your Dad loves and misses you so very, very much.  Your baby sister Cupcake and brother Bob M. are doing well .. keeping me busy.  I know Cupcake misses her big sister Gabby because she found some of your fur and brought it to me  and laid it down at my fee as if to tell me "Dad, where is my sister, I miss her and want to play with her."

Always be at my side Sammy and Gabby ... as I will always need you near me .. always.  Dad, Cupcake and Bob M.

Monday, June 15:  My dear Sammy, Gabby and baby boy Bob M .. how your daddy loves and misses each of you so very, very much.  Each of you has a piece of my heart.

Bob M .. how your sister Cupcake misses you so much.  She keeps looking for you every single day.  I have been keeping good care of her since you headed to Rainbow Bridge because she has been very depressed and I have had to hand-feed her and make sure she is drinking her water too.  Bob M, please let Cupcake know that you are with her .. she needs you little boy.

Always know that your daddy and Cupcake will always love and miss you.  Keep watch over us .. because we need you with us always ....  Dad and Cupcake

 Sunday, June 21 (Father's Day):  My dearest beloved kids .. how your daddy misses each of you so very much .. and so does your baby sister Cupcake.  Each of you are always on my mind .. when I'm at work .. home .. working out in the yard .. always.  Each of you gave me all the love that I could have ever wanted and much, much more and I thank you for that love and continued love.

I also want to thank you for sending me those Father's Day messages .. I will always cherish them.

I ask each of you to always be by my side and watch over me and Cupcake.  Keeping sending us your signs and let us know you are with us always.

Sending BIG HUGS and KISSES and lots of love to you up at Rainbow Bridge.  Dad and Cupcake

Monday, June 29:  My dearest kids, Sammy, Gabby and Bob M .. how I love and miss you three very much.  Though I feel your presence with Cupcake and I .. we still miss you lots.

Cupcake still continues to look for you baby boy Bob M.  Please give her signs that you are with her always .. because she so misses you Bob.  She also continues to find Gabby's hair and brings it to me as if to say "Where is my sister daddy."  It brings tears to my eyes to see Cupcake so sad and missing her big sister and little brother Bob M. 

Cupcake and I worked out in the yard today since it was cooler.  We planted more flowers near your favorite spot, Sammy.  Yes, Cupcake helped me "dig" the holes .. she was having a great time too.

You know, kid, as Cupcake and I were planting and cleaning the yard, a beautiful Dove sat on the electric wire right above us and "cooed" and I asked "are you telling me that my babies are fine and happy .. and, Kids, the  Dove "cooed" again and then I knew you sent that beautiful Dove for Cupcake and me.  Thank you, Kids, always remember that you Daddy and sister love you and miss you so much.  Dad and Cupcake