11/8/08 ~ Shabba, you were such an inspiration in my life, and helped me to know I could love again. A few months after we united, we added Ebony to our family...thank you for helping me open up my heart again sweet boy! I couldn't have asked for better companions back in 1995. May you both rest in peace my angels. I will never be the same without you. Please take good care of your big sis little boy. I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU more each day that passes. I wish we could have spent more time together..."it" rushes by so quickly. Our life shared will be etched in my heart forever. Luv mommy.
Making that decision to put my boy to rest was a traumatic experience. I have attempted to look at Shabba's passing in so many different ways, in an attempt to understand, but no matter how much I have contemplated his passing I will miss my best little friend forever.
I have shed tears, thought about the good times together but there is still an empty void in my home. I really never realized how much his presence created such a joy. He would lay by my side, snore at night, and was just an all around little "super trooper." I love you so much Shabba Lou...you will always and forever be missed.
I have been attempting to make sense of his passing and determine what personal growth can come from losing my boy...my best friend. I have come up with a few insights which have helped me to put this event in perspective.
I know nothing lasts forever and this is true with everything in life. I was very attached to Shabba and really did not realize just how much until his passing. We only have the present moment, nothing else exists so enjoy every moment. I took for granted his time here, and really never gave the fact that he might die one day much thought. It was as if he'd be here forever. But, as his time drew nearer and nearer I noticed that my patterns of behavior changed. I was spending more time petting him, wiping his mouth, giving him more baths, massages, talking to him, and sitting by his side to comfort him during his time of illness. Oh how I’d long just to have a few more precious minutes with him to kiss his little head and lay by his side again.
The life lessons that I have taken from this experience is that the heart-wrenching pain is temporary and will, in time, lessen, but the memories, love and missing him can never be taken away. Enjoy the precious moments, the little things that the pets in your life add, to truly enrich your life experiences. True happiness is only attained when it is shared with another soul. Our souls grow and become enriched as a result of all of our life experiences.
You see, our whole life and reality is a result of how we relate to the issues, circumstances and events that occur. I remember Shabba for all the joy, happiness and love he brought into my life. I had thirteen wonderful years with a pet that will always bring fond memories when I think of him...his love for life, his funny little bark that sounded like a duck quacking...his snoring. Yes, I can smile and cry when I remember all of the moments tied together through the life we shared because they will forever be the special memories of an incredible doggy that touched my life forever. I LOVE YOU SHABBA LOU.