Walk With Me
I knew you would have to go one day and leave your loving home.
I knew i would have to say goodbye and you would leave me all alone.
But now you're gone what can i do, for i miss you dont you see.
My heart is torn in two for thee and the joy you gave to me.
I thought i heard your bark today
I turned around to see
But my eyes were sore and blood shot as i was crying just for thee.
So guide me now through the years ahead
Walk with me every day and protect me and watch over me.
Until my dying day.
Will it ever get better?
Gretel Girl, oh today my heart is aching so much for you. Your soft white face, your velvety ears, your barking for your morning puppy snacks. I miss your coming to the kitchen and barking at me for no apparent reason. I miss your lying beside me on the floor while I watched tv, having me stroke your head. What a precious girl you were. You were my heart and soul for 11 years and the loss of you has been such a burden on my heart. My special Critters friends, Vicki and Diane, make missing you easier. They have such wonderful shoulders to cry on. I found some cute angel dog pins that I'm sending to them. It's nothing big but something to remind them of their Angel Puppies!
Gret, everytime I write or talk to or about you, I cry like a baby. It's so hard to think that you are gone and have been now close to 3 months. Where did that time go? Some days it seems just like yesterday and other times it seems like you been gone forever. OH I MISS YOU MY BABY GIRL!!!
No one will ever take your place in my heart. I miss you so much my special PupPup Girl! I'm hurting for you today. I'm so sad, I miss you, I miss you so very much!!!!
Your Last Picture
IF IT SHOULD BE ME
If it should be that I grow weak,
And the pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done,
For this last battle cannot be won,
You will be sad, I understand,
Don't let your grief then stay your hand,
For this day more than all the rest,
YOUR LOVE FOR ME MUST STAND THE TEST.
We've had so many happy years,
What is to come can hold no fears,
You'd not want me to suffer so,
The time has come to let me go.
Take me where my needs they'll attend,
And please stay with me until the end,
I know in time that your will see me,
The kindness what you have done for me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I've been saved.
Please do not grieve, it must be you,
Who had this painful thing to do,
We've been so close, we two, these years,
Don't let your heart hold back it's tears.
As I write today, you've been gone from me for 3 months and 9 days. Where has that time gone? You are always with me. When I get up in the morning and there is a chair where your bed used to be. I couldn't stand the thought of an empty place there, so I moved a chair to cover that spot. I gave your air bed to Luke, Vader, Obi and Rockie but I think Vader stole it and doesn't let the other boys use it. That's ok. You love the Vader boy! I still miss our special time in the morning when Dad would give you your puppy snacks. Dozer doesn't wait for them like you used to. If Dad didn't get with it, you reminded him in no uncertain terms! That always made us laugh. I miss you coming into the kitchen and barking that silly bark at me. I never really knew why you were doing it except that you wanted me to notice you. I want to talk to Kathy again. You were so at ease with her when she did your reading. You were never one to take to strangers but you did with Kathy right off the bat. When Sister and I took you to Carries to see Kathy that time, you lay so quietly on the floor while she communicated with you. Again, strange surroundings usually set you off but when you were with Kathy, all was ok. She told me that first time that you would pick your time to go. I just never thought it would be so soon. You were such a brave girl. Watching you at the clinic gave me strength to do what you and I both knew had to be done. You gave me permission, I saw it in your eyes and in your demeanor. You were so calm, even though I was a total wreck. I love you for that Big Girl. I miss you something fierce my Gretsky Girl. I dreamed of you for the first time the other night and knew that it was a message from you. I needed that. I just hope to have more of them so that I can see you and be with you once again. I know I will when it is my time and that you, my wonderful friend, will be there to help me. Take care of all of our Critters family fur babies and lick my Dad for me. He'd totally understand. Uncle Bob passed over this morning, I want you to love him for me. He would have liked you a lot. You were a quiet dog and he liked that in a pup pup. Take care my Bestest Girl. I love you!
Ft. Benning and the Gretie!
Well my Beautiful Gretel, it's been almost 4 months since I let you walk over the Bridge. Where has that time gone? I miss you every day but the pain of your loss is getting better. I don't cry as much, although when someone writes something beautiful in your guestbook, I always go to tears. But that's ok. You always understood my crying and this wouldn't be any different for you. Dad and I still talk about you all of the time. Sometime people slip up and call Dozer by your name and then get a sad or sheepish look on their face. I totally understand that. Everyone misses the Big Girl. Me the most but that's totally understandable, as you were my dog in so very many ways. I shared you with Ken, Kenny and Karen but you were My Girl! Once again, the tears are flowing as I think about all that you meant to me. My friend, companion of 11 years, my bestest Bud! No one will ever take you place with me. There is no doubt about that. You were so very special. My rescue girl. I love and miss you my Gretsky PupPup. I finally dreamed about you one night and knew that you were there taking care of me. I hope for so many more of them. You were my one and only Biggest Girl.
I love you Gretel. My Bestest Girl!